Not a single day goes by that I don't remember the events that took place on the night of October 29th. We welcomed our 4th baby Maxwell into the world. Little did we know that our lives would forever be changed in an instant. I used to take things for granted. I like to think I don't anymore. I love my family so much and am so grateful that during Maxwell's delivery I didn't lose my life. My family is everything to me. Which is the reason I fought so hard to stay. Maxwell has impacted our lives tremendously. We are so incredibly blessed to have Maxwell as our son. We have learned and grown so much through losing a child. Life is different now. There is defiantly heartache, pain and someone obviously missing in our family. It isn't as raw as it was in the begining thanks to the atonement; however the hole in your heart is still there. Maxwell is missing from our family. However, with the sadness there is tremendous amounts of joy and happiness. I am so grateful for my knowledge of life after death. I know that our loved ones that have went on are near. I know we will see our loved ones again. I know my Savior lives and loves me. I know he is perfectly aware of the pain, sorrow, grief, angusih and heartache that we all feel at some time or another. Maxwell is no longer living here on earth, but I know without a doubt that he is still living. Our Savior Jesus Christ has made this possible. How grateful I am for life after death, for the atonement and most of all for a Savior who broke the bands of death. Because Christ lives, Maxwell lives and that is a beautiful thing. Although, my heart still aches to hold him, I know that I will see him again. How glorious of a day that will be. I can hardly wait!!! Well I can wait, but it is something I look forward too. :) In the meantime, I will not take my family or my children for granted, they are my everything. I will forever cherish and hang on to the memories of the few short days I spent with my son. Life is beautiful.
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| Jeremy and I on Maxwell's Blessing Day. It was a beautiful and bittersweet evening. One that I will cherish forever. |
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| My beautiful sister coming and meeting Maxwell on his blessing day in the hospital. |
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| Love my sister in laws! |
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| My sister and brother. My sister delivered her beautiful little girl Emery a couple weeks after Maxwell was born. So happy to have Emery in our family. She is a sweet reminder. |
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| My Mother and Father in Law so supportive. |
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My Mom and Dad
I feel bad I think I put my mom through the ringer. They are incredible and were a huge support too. |
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My little Goose, so handsome at his brother Maxwell's funeral.
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| All the cousins and family let white balloons go. It was a beautuful and comforting site. |
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| Why everything was happening, my 3 little piglets were at home playing in the leaves. I love these children of mine. So blessed. |
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| My sisters and family were so supportive. So grateful. |
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Our precious boy. We love you Maxwell!!! Until we meet again......
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